sedativelullaby

2012-01-31T20:06:00.003+11:00

what do you do when you know you'll miss someone while you're away?

& what do you do when you know they'll be thinking of you too?

do you send messages home letting them know?

or do you play dumb & pretend you're not thinking of them at all?

play hard to get & act like nothing's happened?

the 'night-before-departure' constantly gets me thinking...

i miss you already.

lyn x

2012-01-30T22:05:00.001+11:00

looking forward to an overseas adventure ! can't wait till i return home & meet up with my good friends again. hoorah for catching up & gatherings over a good meal. yummyumm*

currently thinking about the possibilities & likelihood for good & happy news this year heh

lyn x

2012-01-28T10:23:00.002+11:00

he's asked for me again & again. but after so many times, he seems to have failed to realise - the reason i kept saying no was because he's already left me twice. if it was his choice to leave me, twice in two weeks, why should i hold on any further? this time i stood strong again, in fact, stronger than before. & said no. i've chosen to forget, forgive & have moved on. this time, i've officially given him no reason to hold onto me. because we are two separate identities. once connected by a story, now individuals from a broken heart. you have done no wrong, but all you've done, was to make me weary of my actions & caution to approach you. i'm sorry it has ended this way, & now, i know, who my true friends are. thank you to everyone that helped create this artificial fairytale. i'll be alright from now.

so in the past week or so, i've found someone that seemed to have arrived a bit late. he's been there all along, & i've never noticed his presence. a few conversations later, & i find myself caring for this one individual a little more than i should be. it may seem all too quick, for me to meet someone new & realise that i've moved on. but i guess, to have known that i have all these choices & not have bothered looking.. i'm sure i've been too caught up with chasing someone that never cared. to this guy that i've just gotten to know so much better, thank you for being so easy to talk to. thank you for being so fun to hang around. i really appreciate your honesty. in some way, you're so similar to how i am - upbringing, beliefs, & conduct. so i'm looking forward to more fun times.

to a better year, to a better me, & to a history i've now chosen to forget...

lyn x

2012-01-16T00:02:00.003+11:00

There are certain things people try to hold on to, certain things people hold on to without even trying, certain things that hold itself together without effort, & certain things that fall apart no matter how hard you've tried.

You were that certain thing I tried to hold on to, & yet fell apart. Now I know, because now I see... I know I'd have moved on, only when I struggle to remember our fights, arguments & unhappy memories.

& just like how i've moved on from him, i've forgotten the arguments & upsetting memories. right now, all i'm holding to, are happy ones. & the fact that i've found that friendship with him again, reminds me that no matter what happens, i'm still holding on to my promise. to forever love you in a way or another.

same goes to you i guess, i've tried so many convos. been more than two weeks. & i guess this isn't the way we'll go for the year. only the start of 2012, but eventually, we'll be friends again. when - i know not of. but eventually, one day. when we've both fully recovered.

because some things time can't change. like friendships with andrew. 8 years and counting. his persistence with my nonsense, i must say, no guy has tolerated for as long as he has. thank you for always being there =] i'm looking forward to catching up again, & seeing you after 4 years.

it's not long now, i've almost stepped out of our misery. i'm almost at the end, i'm almost able to walk away & pretend nothing bad ever happened. because loving you doesn't mean having you, it just means knowing you're well. &wishing you well.

lyn x

2012-01-04T21:59:00.003+11:00

Before we know it, 2012 has arrived. I'm finally entering my final year at uni.

Many say 2012 will bring about happiness, and some say the end of the world...

Either way, I know this year will bring me plenty more fun adventures.

I'm not just entering the final year of uni, I'll also be celebrating my 21st year born into this world.

A remarkable timeframe to have experienced happy times, sad times, love, hate, tears, agony, and separation...

Loosing loved ones, letting go of friendships & trying to get myself back again.

2011 was an amazing year - experiencing different types of love.

Seeing and experiencing familial interactions - with mine and others... & catching up with many people from all over the world.

Met some awesome friends, got to know people who were on exchange (will & jem), went out into the city for photoshoots,

been out on a houseboat, attended 21sts & felt super motivated to get people to do speeches, re-found friendships, lost friends, got closer with strangers, worked plenty, saved slightly, & most importantly, loved and lost.

Because they once said, 'better to have once loved and lost, than to never have loved at all'.

I guess the highlight of my year was to meet him again, & fall in love all over again. I know I've thanked him before, over & over again, in almost every way I could've possibly thanked him. Perhaps it's nothing to even have thanked about, a relationship wasn't a favour, its a reciprocal action by both. I may have done wrong, & never showed him how much I appreciated, never proven to him how I could've been a better girlfriend, but deep down, I hold on to a hope... that this was going to be another one of our silly arguments. I guess, a part of me hopes for forgiveness & for everything to return to before. Eventually, I'll have to move on, find someone else, allow someone to be a part of my life. Eventually, I'll have to open & see, welcome someone else into my life & celebrate my strengths and flaws. I guess I will have to accept, he's not the one, & he won't be the one... so I'll have to wish him well. Congratulate him & see him turn into someone else's boyfriend, fiancee & eventually, husband. A long time, true... yet still hard to imagine & accept, a man I once loved will have to be someone elses.

Anyway, its been four days into the new year. & I haven't managed to move on yet. I've given myself this year, to sort myself out, & to once again be prepared to love, like I've never loved before. & it also marks the 4th day since I've heard from him... I suppose he needs time, & space... if only he knew how much he meant to me. How much he still means to me. Four days in... & I've also gone out into the city. Realising a whole world has been moving on, while I've held on to history. Visited a few places in the city today & found that I also revisited my memories, revisited the anger & solved a few unforgiven arguments. Figured plenty weren't worth it... but when you're in it, you never know how to cherish.

Because when you're living within happiness, you won't know what happiness is. Till you've lost.

& this new year, I'll have fun, & love myself, like no one else has ever loved me before.

For my 21st year, I'll live for myself & believe that somewhere, out there, my man's still waiting to meet me.

lyn x

2011-12-11T20:45:00.002+11:00

FUCKING PAINFUL WITHOUT YOU.

i'm still holding on,

knowing there's nothing else i can do.

3 days till a month since I held your hand.

I miss you.

Lyn x

2011-11-16T16:37:00.002+11:00

five days ago, i posted saying i loved you.

but who knew, you'd leave me just like that.

i miss you.

please give me another chance...

the past 26.5 hours has been a torture, i don't want reality,

i want to know you're still wanting me.

its fuckn painful without you .

lyn x

2011-11-11T16:03:00.001+11:00

It would probably help if i updated this blog a little bit more,

but one word is all... MEH.

You've held me close, made me lip read, showered all your love and attention on me..

& I appreciate everything you've done.

For you, for us, for me - I love you :]

lyn x

2011-05-30T23:15:00.001+10:00

I'm no longer hoping.

It is as simple as that.

You've turned out to be the same. You haven't changed. I was naive, I'd thought you'd make me feel special.

Or maybe you can, but only at times when you felt like it.

I'm so sick of waiting to talk to you.

I'm so sick of waiting for you.

lynn x

2011-05-28T23:41:00.001+10:00

i don't know which uni lecturer decided to put everything due on the same day. but this 70% of ech319 due on one day... does not help.

i've just barely completed 335, and now i need to worry about finishing off 70% of a unit. minus group work rehearsals and written reports for the other members. why'd i opt this path. why didn't i start before.

i wish he was here to just listen and speak to me.

i don't know how long i'm holding on for. i'm losing grip. will you tighten your arms around me, and let me know its going to be okay? :(

lynn x

2011-05-25T20:12:00.002+10:00

spoke about blogs in today's tutorial. then realised i haven't blogged in ages.

yes its true i've got a few blogs,

but i've stopped posting on one.

and also considering to delete that.

but at least i've got two running.

this blog & the other one for mistermario.

obviously both blogs aren't locked (as usual).

and will possibly be locked some day .

when i'm sick of writing maybe?

it's been exactly a month since i last saw you.

but over the last month,

we've progressed enough for me to say,

thank you, for being in my life.

if you were to leave right now,

i'd be really lost. unsure of who i'd speak to.

if you were to walk out of it,

i'd be crumbling into piece,

unsure of what would become of me.

i'm glad we've had our moments.

to open up and just speak about everything.

i'm glad we've been where we've been.

cause right now, i know you much better,

i know what to say, i can say,

i'm more independent and more dependent.

both at once. because of how you've made it possible.

thank you for the sweet talk,

and the listening ears.

the past month has been a pleasure.

although i've been upset.

but you being there,

it's helped so much.

i miss you dearly.

and i hope i'll see you soon.

with love from, me.

lynn x

2011-04-26T14:29:00.001+10:00

don`t even remember when was the last time i blogged.

but i can`t keep this in.

last night was simple but so good.

because reality was much better than my dreams.

thank you. for the good night.

lynn x

2011-03-05T23:48:00.003+11:00

woah, when was the last time i actually set my fingers on this keyboard to blog again?
i apologise. to anyone that even bothers to visit this dead blog anymore.
to think i used to do the daily thingg - how DID i do it .
i barely even find time to get things sorted . zz.

so week 2 uni is over - already in my 3rd year .
where has all the time gone .
seems like it was just recently i finished year 12,
seems like not too long ago, i still had the boy on a bike,
visiting me at my place - tbh i miss that .
but i don`t exactly miss the character .

anywhoos - so i've done mentoring .
it was reallllyyyy good -
ended up mentoring bens sister .
which was a ilttle weird .
seeing i knew of her before she knew i even existed .
but overall, it was fun .
learnt lots , met lots of people ,
which has now led to me dreaming of them .

meeting troy on monday :D
then meeting nick on tues .
charlie (MH@towers) tues morning .
richard tues arvo ..
busy busy week :D excited!

so yeahh - general update .
lifestyle wise - met a lot of new friends .
which is really good .
ssa people . mentoring people .
tutorials .. mmmm (:
heading off . blog again soon .
GOOOD NIGHT .

jocelynnn x

2011-01-29T23:53:00.002+11:00

~~icantstopthinkingaboutyoursmile. pleaseshootmealready! :(~~

this is bugging me so badly. ever since we met up, i can`t stop thinking about it ..

there wasn`t anything special. it was just this aura thing. it`s running in and out of my head.

constantly. i need to stop it.. distraction PLEASE!

in other news - i bought my nikon d3100 TWIN lens for a snatch ! :D

woo ! best price ever . so i am very happy to announce ,

i`m going to start shooting anything i can possibly shoot .

starting from lucki.

oh &hes got a groom so he acts like a lamb now .

only because he`s light and can fly .

"i believe i can fly" so he thinks .

bed summons.

goodnights !

jocelynnn x

2011-01-17T23:48:00.002+11:00

back from tasmania & melbourne & WHAT AN EXPERIENCE.

encountered so many things one would never think to get in ONE trip . 7-10 days to be precise . you see, because of bad weather, we ended up staying 10 days instead of planned 7.

so prior to tassie trip, we checked the weather like a typical traveller, and packed for 11degree days. because it said so. the moment we arrived in tas, we cursed&sweared like nobody's business. because apparently the day we landed, the temperatures hit up to 30degrees, and clearly we hadn`t really packed for that. sure we had 2-3 short sleeves, but that wasn`t going to last us 7 days. so we vowed to get more shirts over the next few days (love sales!)

met up w matty&shann the next day & finally got to meet riley! he`s so gorgeous . oh & i met jazz too (the bradford's 3 year old husky). she`s beaaaaautiful ! and smart. heh. went out to seaport for lunch w them, and we whined even more about the summer heat . what else can asians do aye? we`re professional. headed to city centre after, and did some shopping. colorado bag heh . & dad got shirts . i couldn`t find any . so i had to cope w my pack .

& we also visited the griffin family . (lots of visiting this trip). next day was riley's christening, that was different. we`ve nvr attended one so that was an experience. &it was boiling . headed over to griffins again and met up with their extended family .. mannn they`re big . so different from asians. anyway , we left earlier than other folks & headed to the douglas'

they have a hugeeeee house ! and they built it with all their materials at no cost .. lucky people. i was hoping to meet sierra but that was impossible when we arrived. realised she moved over to melbourne and so, my old time friend wasn`t there for me to meet up with anymore. clearly, the adults remembered how i was friends with her at a young age and was asking stuff like "do you remember that and that happening?" which i did so that was embarrassing & funny at the same time . i should look her up on fb . pretty sure she`d use it :/ anyways, headed to swansea the following day & spent 2 nights in a caravan . w no toilets no shower and no hot water -_- we were having fun but yet laughing at that . quite an experience i`d say . loved it though . spent heaps of them w the bradford family . thank you for your hospitality ! it was fantastic ! experience for then was also riley spewing on me . and causing me to smell like spoilt milk.. dammit. i think he enjoyed it though cos he did it to mum as well.. and he was sucking on my face .. because he could -__-;

drove up to st helens after, and got stuck from the storm. flash floods, gale winds, heavy rains, washed away roads and what not .. AND we were living by the coast, so that increased stress levels. by the time we could flee, we fled. somewhere through getting stuck, we realised we didnt have the right return flights booked. so we had to change plans .

ended up heading into town and booking a whole new trip to melbourne . which was heaaaps fun. cos we booked for a flight that was in 4 hours . so that was rather rushed . arrived in melbourne late night and left for crown about 1230 in the morning . stupid idea . got home and slept at 330am . i was dead the next morning . but did the same thing (pretty much) the 2nd night again .. heh . slightly earlier but still late . next experience was getting woken up at 3am by stupid fire alarms .. two firetrucks and a super annoying fire alarm. not what i deem as fun but anyway.. it was a good trip. loved it. we did dfo and docklands again and i did shopping ! :D 25$ witchery wallet that was rrp 90$. just cos it was missing a buckle on the zips & pen ink . 10$ flats cos it was on sale . and 60$ dfss heels for work. heh.

got back ytd night and has picked lucki up from the vets accommodation . how ive missed him . i`m off for now . long post much .

good night !

jocelynn x

2011-01-06T23:35:00.002+11:00

tassie tmr ! :] super excited. haven`t been there in prob 10 years ?

so really looking forward to seeing all those old friends ,

&& even little riley :) caaaan`t wait .

even though leaving lucki behind at the vets mean i`ll miss him like crazy .

but i`ll cope . i`ve done melbourne for a week .

& that was when i first got him as well ..

so this one week will be good i hope .

i know he`ll miss me like crazy as well .

but i hope the other dogs at the vets will take care of him .

&& teach him to MAN up .

at least this time i`m only leaving ONE behind .

melb was leaving two behind .

god that felt terrible ,

didn`t know which one i should be asking about when i rang home .

now , i know very well .

i miss both my pets like crazy .

& i`ll have them in my heart till the day i die :(

i miss you (already)!

anywhoo , headed to cait`s today .

swimming & pizza - those was fun :)

although i was freezing my ass off .

but it was heaps fun .

truuth or dare && 20 qns .

&& all the goss :) i love it .

looking forward to cait`s 21st :) hehs .

hoping that 2011 will be a much greater year ,

much more fun, more love,

more truth, more happiness .

because everytime i try,

you seem too far away to be truu.

jocelynnn x

2011-01-01T01:32:00.002+11:00

wishing for another chance to countdown with you. because if we went ahead with it, it would`ve been the best nye spent. you were the only one i wanted to be with when the clocked ticked 12 midnight. i don`t care about fairytales. i ain`t no cinderella. because midnight would`ve meant you`d see the sparkle in my eyes when you were near me.

if i could hold on to you and countdown to a new year, i`d very gladly do that. i`d love to be by your side. till everyone falls apart. till every river ran dry. till the stars no longer could shine. i wished today went on. so i could`ve seen your smile once more. i wished you were by me while i took the 9pm fireworks. i wished you were the first one to say happy new year to me. i wished you were just that fraction faster than he was. i wished you knew i wanted to turn up & give you surprises.

if only you knew. if only you could sense and see the tears. if only you could hear my heart breaking when we fought last year. if only you understood how much you meant to me. here`s to a better year ahead for us. and here`s to the luck we might have to countdown to 2012 together in 365 days.

went shopping w carz tday, &i`m glad i bought stuff. summer sandals for 25bucks && josh groban cd for 10bucks . I LOVE BARGAINS =] i mean which asian doesn`t right ? :] if only i bought that pretty oroton wallet though . omg so pretty i swear . cream ._. aaaaah . $85 .. should`ve just bought it ._. anyyywaaay . shoppings good .

&i went to liz's place after. &headed to milsons pt w the family. man that was nice. being the only non-family member and knowing you are close friends w the son & mum , and now the sister. then having the sister find out about yur old rships. fun but weird. oh, and we had the BEST sport . according to me :) no crowd + fantastic view. very much thanks to their friend! bad photos cos i frickn brought the wrong lens, but otherwise was good. headed home after 9pm fireworks (while hoping he was the one driving me home instead).

jenga'd till about 1140 && started the programme :) fireworks were pretty this year. yay.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

jocelynnn x

2010-12-17T23:02:00.002+11:00

8 days till x'mas and i haven`t bought two presents ._.

raaaawrh . but this year has flown by so quickly ..

wondering where the year has gone .

so many things has happened in 2010 .

both nice & not nice .. but of course , it's been ok .

nothing major . all surviving .

also , 2010 has meant an improvement in GPA :)

hooray ! so proud of this sem's achievements .

now , to worry about placements next year .

yaaaawn* and to look for a new job .

that`s all of that for 2011 ..

also - since the year is ending soon ,

about time to start thinking of new year resos .

&&to plan house parties .

totally looking forward to more partying ,

student leadership stuff with mentoring .

meeting new people ,

meeting new kids , finishing up 3rd year ,

travelling , possibly buying a camera ,

and possibly a car .

very much looking forward to getting green Ps ,

trying to learn manual driving ,

&& all those things .. not looking forward to turning 20 .

but otherwise , i`m okay .

oh & dreaaading 9-7pm days at uni with 1 hour break .

i`m totally going to drown in coffee on tuesdays .

looking forward for good friendships , better friendships ,

&definitely more quality time with the loved ones .

now the question is .. how can i do that in new year resos ,

AND achieve it . i achieved my 2010 ones .

anywaaaays ! all good .

jocelynnn x

2010-12-03T17:47:00.002+11:00

is it just me? or do boys seem to make things so much harder than it already it? when you try to forget about the bad things, and give them a chance to mend the friendship/rship .. they just hold it in their head. and pretend everything is still the way it is. you try to forgive and forget, yet they talk with such precision that it spears through your heart, shatter it, then go "oh so you know its not going to work ever again?"

really .. is it really that hard to give boys a second chance to be friends again? or maybe the boys i know. it's like i have to take every step with such caution if i want to keep them close by.. otherwise, one word, they get angry, and they`ll nvr listen again. trying to hard to make things work but it seems like it`s never going to. maybe i`m hoping for a miracle, or maybe i`m hoping for a chance to prove something, or maybe i`m just hoping that i get to still hope things work out.

also, privacy is such a bugged issue lately. why is it there's nothing i can tell you without the other one knowing. is that all you know how to do? tell other people? all i wanted was just privacy btwn us, all i wanted was something special to share, all i wanted was to have memories of us.

when i say i miss you, believe me that i really do. i've probably only said it once or twice to you, but i meant it everytime i said those words.

in other news: got good results so far for assignments. really happy. was gna meet chrys but she was in a meeting / didnt get there at the time expected, so ended up not meeting . shall meet her another day! heh. looking forward to fun filled holiday events, and hardworking sem results from now .. its such satisfaction when you get it back and know the markers enjoyed marking it .. yay .

anyways - lucki's also been dear . showered him ytd .. fantastic experience. took us so long to dry his hair. and showering was alright - cos mummy was all rawrr and lucki just stood there letting her soap him . he smells good now. otherwise, things are going fine..

because i believe you came into my life for a reason `_~

jocelynnn x

2010-11-30T23:09:00.003+11:00

wow. havent blogged in a bits. been bored lately. had to work plenty of shifts at castle hill. did i mention we opened again? :)

and today, i had a day off and got reallyyyyy bored. heh. cos i cldnt decide wht to do. so decided to sleep in. ended up getting up reaaally late...

went into towers after brunch && bought myself a ring :) its pretty pretty. saw it ytd and loved it .. then today saw 40% off.. so i bought it =] also, pay day today && i paid off my debts to daddy. yayyers. i`m glad ive finally paid everything..

now to actually pay mummy back. yaaawn* then i`m good .. can`t wait. && tassie in jan . woo ! i cant wait to meet riley - he looks gorgeous :) yay for cute babies to play with while being on holidays - i loveee going away. anyway short update. time to head off..

p.s i miss you.

jocelynnn x

2010-11-24T22:54:00.003+11:00

i haven`t blogged in yonks - about 14 days . which is still not a record . my record was really a month - the month i lost milo. sad month . lost a coupla things, gained quite a bit too . so it balances out i guess.. anyway, blogging today since i finished exams ytd at 3pm sharp. so i`ve finally got the time to hop onto blogger . and just type .

many things has happened since my blogging fanatic times .. tbh , i reckon i`ve changed heaps in the past one year or so. thoughts and all .. one line i said to ange today, "i don`t wna settle for something i`m not certain is right". like really? haven`t i always been impulsive in my life ? and now - i`m thinking . before acting . and i actually meant it when i said it to her, how weird. ah wells. its all good =]

today was weird . the end . this whole worrying thing got me thinking - i should cherish whatever i have before me . & that helped me decide . hopefully i won`t be disappointed by it . swarovski - you always change me . in every single possible way. first the income. then the debts. then the jewellery and thinking and talking . maybe i should quit ec altogether.

i`m going to write letters :) snail mail . woo! wait up !

ps passed anth w/o exam marks. woo!

jocelynnn x

2010-11-10T19:18:00.002+11:00

i haven`t blogged in a month. but i suppose i should. and i`m also going to change the format i type. which is .. just keep typing. since i can`t be bothered entering paragraphs and highlighting to change colours. it takes forever !

anyway, so it's been a month since i've seen my dear rabbit. poor guy suffered a flystrike - resulting in his bottom growing maggots & what not. so our backyard ended up with maggots & all those flies. poor guy also ended up being halfbody paralysed. i felt sorry for him. though he kept eating. it was quite a miracle. he ate the same amount but still hopped around. so anyway, dad decided it was enough. and decided to stop his suffering. you know what i mean. r.i.p. dear. i miss you :( time to time i look at pictures and remember his little ball of fluff when i first bought him two years ago. i might adopt a rabbit in the near future. i haven`t decided.

but oh rabbits are such joy. just like my little boy lucki.

did i mention, lucki's so grown up now? he`s about 7.5 months old. we`ve had him 5 months and 4 days (exact same duration as our neighbour having her kitty cat). coincidental i swear. anyway, lucki`s gone through desexing, and couple of vet visits, meeting a few dogs, plenty of humans.. only because he hates dogs and loves humans. i`ll tell you a scenario later. &&plenty of walks. he loves it. as soon as you say "walk2". he looks and you and hunts down his leash (not that its the same place everytime. heh.) then he tries to pull you for the first 5 minutes, and realises he`s tired already. then you have to drag him for the rest of the journey. because he loves grass, not walking, loves running after people & not walking properly. (i think hes actually throwing up right now.. stupid boy. licks everything and throws up everything). so the story about him liking people not dogs? once i brought him over to jono's to meet sparky (a 11yo lab retriever)... he walks in, really happy. and totally ignores the dog but looks for jono instead. happens everytime he sees sparky. oh sighs *

oh in other news, i`ve been working at chatswood swarovski and i love it. at least the managers. customers wise - theyre odd .. "if the exchange is 1 is to 1 .. then shouldn`t you be selling me the usd that it says online?". really here i am thinking "how about we say that to the us people and sell it for higher. how does that sound little girl?". sighs right here too! *

updated you for the month. next two weeks would be hiatus. stupid exams kill.. esp when i have anth & 218 on the same day. not fun :( i`ll survive i hope. till then! ciao.

jocelynnn x

2010-10-10T22:44:00.002+11:00

i haven`t blogged in two weeks or more .

omgawwwwd -_-;

i need to stop forgetting things like thattt ,

or more of , need to stop being lazy .

heh .

anyways , soo updates ,

lucki`s been desexed - taking stitches out tmr .

first day he got home ,

he was being a stoner .

&&sleeping everywhere .

it was prettttty cuuuuute =3

then slowly he got back to normal .

we were like NGAAAAWWW-ing .

cos he was that silly .

and cos we bought him a turtur .

&he hated it day one ,

kept running away from it .

but after he recovered ,

he loveeees th turtur junkloads :3

photos are on fb` hehs .

ima love lucki lottts.

neways , so uhmm ,

i don`t know what else has been happening .

passing uni . not too bad .

at least i havent failed anything this sem .

*sigh , so tiring .

trying to get more monies around ,

so impossible ,

its not that time of the year = =;

i`ll need to hunt for more jobs soon ~

esp since i cant do xmas casual .

will be to bogged down w swarovskis xmas shifts .

zz` anyways ! yeaaaah .

can`t wait till uni finishes this year ,

then i`d be like *sigghhh before another sem of prac again .

daaaammit . i wna finish uni alr ! :(

talking to angee now ,

miss the kids from kindaalin :[

aaaaah . too bad they won`t rmb me ...

newhos , i`m off . niiights !

jocelynnnn x

2010-09-29T23:23:00.002+10:00

I havent blogged in a bit too long .

updates;

turned 19 :] and went to dinner w a few close mates ,

went for board games cafe ,

&& that was really good =]

loved th night .. stayed out till coming 12 .

got home past 12 .

so parents woke me up in the car .

to wish me hbd =]

thnk you dears . for those that came .

lucki dropped a couple of teeth since .

i dont even know how many anymore .

cos the last two he dropped,

he swallowed it .

so i didn`t find it .

dropped one while i was sitting with him ,

but i still didn`t see it :(

i wanted to keep a collection ! argh .

but its ok , he`s a big boy now .

desexing him tomorrow .

i don`t know how worried i should be .

i know i`ll miss him .

&&i know i`d be worried .

but :/ i HOPE it'd be ok .

i don`t wna hurt him when he gets home .

he`s grown so much since i got him .

rah :] i love my baby boy .

he`s so gorgeous ,

so smart and sweet to everyone .

i`ve also been walking him .

so he loves his outdoors ,

&&th sight of his lead ,

beautiful boy :) i love you !

also plenty has happened in terms of friendship ,

&&in terms of relationships ,

pretty shocking how things change so quickly .

you`re friends w them for 4.5 years ,

then over one party ,

you stop talking to them . ah wells .

met a few new friends ,

learnt a few new things ,

and let the rabbit do new things .

he now lives in the whole backyard ,

&& at night we bring him home .

so the other day he ran to my front yard .

or more of escaped ,

so happens i was walking sparky w jono .

&as we got back ,

saw milo , he ran .

&went back to my backyard .

then sat at the door and waited for me .

sweet rabbit too =] so yeahs ,

pets been good . me been good .

shall update in a few weeks time .

bwhaha .

jocelynnn x

2010-09-09T23:15:00.002+10:00

So i did a blog during uni,

but I'm going to delete it .

for two reasons ,

1 - it was in NO formatting whatsoever .

so that's bugging me.

2 - when i try to format it,

safari crashes .

so i shall NOW delete it :)

had uni today , and it was rather . BLAH .

got my mq t-shirt for open day .

its huge ):

so i`ll be tying it or pinning or w/e .

doing 2-4 w felicia . so FUN -_-;

it`s meant to be quiet then .

trying to finish 232 by tomorrow night .

so i can hand it in sat ._.

that way i don`t have to go in on monday .

and also means i have 3 days to study for 2 midsems .

of 6 weeks worth of craaaap .

uni uni uni . you`ll kill me .

i know it ._.

i`m going to sleep soon ,

finish up last bits of this assignment (for today)

then finish the final thing tomorrow :)

gooooodnight !

jocelynnn x

2010-09-06T23:54:00.002+10:00

ahh dodgy internet ! haaaate it :(

hmmmmppphs .

it`s so unstable . i keep getting signed out of msn .

soooo annoying =_=;;

newhooos. finished anth151 ytd night .

so i was REAAAAALLY happy about that .

started 232 today ,

and got 1.5 plans done . so happy about it too :)

at least i got work done .

made budget today .

thanks to an scs customer . very happy .

budget in 3 weeks ? lol . i fail :D

also met old friend during work .

which was good . caught up about stuff .

and managed to begin missing the good old days .

damn i miss being young .

OMG! internet died .

and removed my WHOLE post .

except for those above . wwwtttttfffff T____T;;

i`m not gna reblog .

but in short -

it was about . excited about birthday .

meeting friends . have fun .

catch up . and needing my break from uni .

meeting a new friend few weeks back ,

andrew . hes pretty nice .

i trust bel . thnks for editing my work .

and uhh , i don`t rmb anymore .

so blah . this post better not be deleted!

jocelynnn x

2010-08-31T18:50:00.002+10:00

Feeling so cold, so painful, so tired.

I`m sick AGAIN.

its like i`m always sick this time every year .

every single september,

i fall sick right before my birthday .

and struggle to make it to class(es).

last time i was sick this year ,

like this bad? may 2010 .

right in the middle of prac.

whackbam* i struggled to complete 289 ,

then eventually got better right before prac again .

fell sick on the friday ,

with high fever & what not .

so yeaaaah .

hopefully all the medicine will help me get better by tomorrow.

cos ive got 4 hours of uni .

3 hour lecture ,

&& one hour stupid anth tute . uuuugggghhh .

anyway - i`m tired . i`m sick .

i`m cold .

&&lucki dropped his 3rd tooth today :D

it looks odd . but its still a tooth .

so its cuuuuute . im cooold .

my fingers are FREEEZING .

im going to do lit review !

byebyebybebyebbyebybe :)

jocelynnnn x

2010-08-27T23:51:00.002+10:00

I know I havent blogged in forever .

since that incident actually.

but everythings ok now =)

we started talking again on thurs .

after 24 x 4 + 12 hours ?

i think . yeah it was rather long .

longest ive been through .

so it felt like crap .

but clearly, coming from this family,

none of us apologises,

we just let it go till its time to talk again .

so this time , it just took a taaad longer .

all good now =)

anyway . so through that pd ,

was reaaaally desperate to spend money .

so started looking on yesstyle

and decided to order things =]

but yet to put the order through.

blaaaargh .

also been doing 218 essay .

even though its only 25%,

i seemed to have stressed a fair bit ?

but handed that in today .

so i`m all good =]

then went over to mqcentre .

to pick out a present for dearest neighbour ,

anica . its her 21st today =)

did some shopping ,

&&ended up buying quiiiiite a bit .

card , bed for lucki ,

bag :D , shirt for mum ,

&jeans for mum (shes meant to pay me back ?)

hahaha . then yeaaah ,

i don`t rmb what else i bought .

got home , and lucki threw up -_-

in his bed . and started crying .

prob cos he felt like craaaap .

then he came out ,

and threw up again . a lot more .

&&he just walked away from us ,

went under the table .

&collapsed . without even looking up .

he refused to look at us .

then went down just like a camel .

so we got pretty scared .

booked in an immediate appointment for lucki @ the vets .

&&got him checked out .

cos he wasn`t even MOVING .

he was just lying there ,

like he was ancient & old ,

&&when we opened the doors to let him out ,

he didn`t move as well .

note: this is abnormal .

he usually ran away from us .

so we took him in ,

&went vets . got him checked .

he throws up again at the vets .

turns out to be abnormal food ?

or something he wasnt used to .

guess how much it costed us ?

sixty bloody five dollars . wtf =_=

there goes this and next week's waage ):

criiiiies* lucki why are you so expensive .

i wished you were TEN times healthier .

and less unusual -_-

came home , decided to give anica swarovski pieces instead .

so gave her the thing i just got today .

(i picked it up from towers today.

and gave it away today).

so i gave away one ,

and gained myself a pendant .

it is still sweet though . so thats ok .

anyway ! thheeeen, got dressed (formal theme)

and went over . SUPER CLASSY I TELL YOU.

this is from a family that drives 4 audis.

ONE each -_- so yeh , shldve expected that .

she had helium filled balloons,

lights, decorations w 'happy 21st' ,

a photography corner set up ,

&a two layered cake ,

a whole room filled of champagne ,

wines , soft drinks .. oh my gosh .

perfect twentyfirst i reckon .

pleeenty of food .

catered and made . yum*

and a very cute cousin to top it off .

he was the most gorgeous little boy ever .

eventually played w him ,

after he started getting to know me .

&&even took photos w him .

ngaaaaw =] he kept coming up to me ,

going : "i got you! hehehe"

he even turns pink when he laughs .

aaaah . cuuuuutest kid EVER .

next to brian, harley , stella ,

ariana . aahh . those babies .

missss them ):

anyway . so stood on weird heels for HOURS .

and my back really hurts ):

so i`m going to sleep soon .

ROAD TRIP TOMORROW .

hurraah ? but no reception .

OMGOMGOMGOMG im gna diiiie ):

i`m gna sleep . gooodnight .

happy 21st anica :) love you !

jocelynnn x

2010-08-21T20:04:00.003+10:00

I really wish to be able to define what makes up my family.

Love is definitely in there somewhere.

I just don't know where anymore.

Just had a massive fight .

Just because dad didn't even understand my point.

Because my point was "you should prob ask mum before you decide ,

on issues that affect the whole family"

and he tells me I need to get over things that has happened .

So a lot of crap comes up ,

with how i dig up the past .

and pick on things to fight over .

This results with me feeling pissed off ,

and telling him 'ok fine ,

im digging shit up.

but we`ll see when history repeats itself"

and by that, i`m positive.

it wouldn't be far from now .

because of how we`re looking to move .

Mum then tries to explain my point .

which results in dads escalated anger .

and "disappointment". so he calls it .

and continues to shout and throw things around .

then lucki tries to unhelp it .

by barking his head off.

clearly he was feeling scared of 'wtf is going on'

dad proceeds to leave when mum tells me to go somewhr .

she didn`t know where .

so he leaves . and we`re left there .

and with lucki freaking his ass off .

picked him up and realised how fantastic dogs were .

he just sat there with me .

while i poured my eyes out .

and he started licking my tears away .

slightly gross . but what else should i expect .

when there's no one else to do it ?

he laid next to me for a long duration .

and kept checking back at me

thank you lucki . for being there .

when i needed someone most .

still tearing .

so going to try go out tomorrow night .

or something .

i really don`t understand where i live anymore .

maybe i should move out .

and live near uni or something .

do pt uni , and shit like that .

that way i`d be less bugged .

at least i had a conversation w a friend i havent had w in ages .

and realised that he would be there when i required someone .

even though i needed someone else .

or was hoping for .

i did not mention it to him at all .

only because i know,

this will be my first step to giving up .

my first step to letting go .

i need to start somewhere .

and its from talking to other people .

i pray for someone to provide this family with anger management .

or anything similar .

jocelynnn x

2010-08-04T23:18:00.003+10:00

raaaah , its 11.19pm .

i`ve decided to stay for a little bits .

cos i cldnt sleep for two days in a row .

and its not funny :(

i got like 7 hours sleep each day .

so i was really tired and restless .

but yet at night ,

i still cldn`t get to sleep :(((

ah wells . had to change plans for 19th .

since it clashed with another 21st party .

and people cldnt attend both .

now to convince the parents .

oh -_- the hassle .

ah well . hopefully it goes to plan .

and it works . and people come :(

my birthdays on a holiday .

but everyones working .

boohoo T____T"

ah wells . gna sleep =)

goooodnight.

jocelynnn x

2010-08-03T23:26:00.003+10:00

soooo tired,

gna be sleeping soon .

only cause blaaardy cldnt sleep ytd .

and only had 8 hours sleep .

as opposed to usual 10 hours .

raaawrh .

anyway ,

went movies today w mummy .

$9 for knight and day :D

i like cinebuzz specials !!

so watched knight and day .

it was so good ! i liked it !

in fact, i loved it !

i would die for a real life roy miller .

someone charming ,

someone good at fighting .

maybe minus the shooting and killing,

but someone so sweet =]

anywhoos .

came home , tutored .

then started preping up for uni tmr .

dammit . uni starts tmr ! :(

so tired . so should sleep .

love! i miss you :DDDD

jocelynnn x

2010-08-02T23:23:00.002+10:00

blogged twice on other blog .

in two days .

but didn`t blog this as much .

HAHAH . raaawrh .

uni starts tomorrow (officially).

but not going till wed =]

hoorah for skipping lectures .

but boooo for readings :(

already trying to do one .

but already feel behind .

hahahah . screw uni .

passes will do =]

p.s another 26 days till a year .

time really flies .

and we`re still not friends :(

jocelynnn x

2010-08-01T23:17:00.002+10:00

i haven`t blogged in FOREVERRRR :{

buuuttt i really want to blog .

don`t know why .

nothing to blog about but want to anyway :)

dora&&genia left ytd =|

so the house is rather quiet .

you know , they are reaaally noisy =P

and hogs my room .

heheh jokesjokes .

it was nice having them around :D

the last night we had awesome bbq session ,

w taboo and random jokes .

like rodents , underwear ,

and aromatherapy :)

hahaha . super like !

anyway - i want to start writing letters .

so when that one day comes ,

i have good memories to pass on :)

goodnight all .

jocelynnn x

2010-07-27T22:42:00.002+10:00

sooo boreeeed :( hmppphs .

want to do something ,

but don`t know what .__.

kindaa lazy && tired ,

just wna sleeeeeep :D

anyways !

went towers today .

&&printed beloved photos of lucki :3

kawaii desu nehh .

so i ended up giving myself a fairly NICE blister .

between my toes ,

so i`m struggling to walk ):

ended up with a band-aid btw the toes :/

feeeeels super funny .

gave lucki a nice shower today ,

he hates it .

but he smells super cute now =3

i love . and clipped a few of his nails -

the ones i could get . teehee .

okk - back to reading & surfing net .

nighhtss =]

jocelynnn x

2010-07-24T23:37:00.002+10:00

post #1401 - but .

it has been a rather segmented pattern of posting .

like some friends - i`ve turned bored .

bored of this frequent blogging .

but nonetheless ,

i have no excuse tonight .

i have finished all possible bones episodes on my dvds .

i have NOTHING else to watch .

without streaming that is .

maybe i could start on hk drama .

but then again , holidays are drawing to an end .

in other news .

eudora and eugenia are here in sydney .

on a fantastical holiday to visit me :)

and family - duh .

we`ve known them since we were 6 years old .

first the parents met ,

then we got to know each other existed .

then in 2004 (i think),

we made a trip to WA at the same time .

&&met up at Mandurah, WA.

good times. crabbing,

swimming , travelling .

not much but very good .

we got closer then .

and we`ve been rly good friends since =]

anyway -

heading to the rocks tomorrow .

for the aroma festival thing happening .

it`s meant to be really good .

looking forward to trying guylian hot chocolate .

and possibly whatever else i can get a hold of =)

might bump into mark`s friend ,

and maybe lets hope a bunch of other friends go too :L

everyone - to the rocks tomorrow !! :D

ah wells - gna sleep soon .

when daddy&&mummy gets home ~_~''

goodnight .

p,s 我对你的思念是一天比一天的严重

我对你的爱是一天比一天的深

我和你的距离就像我从来不想离开你的感觉

我爱你 (:

p,p,s santa&&elf - `07

jocelynnn x

2010-07-17T22:45:00.002+10:00

rediscovered the meaning of love && racism today .

love - the fact that you want them .

yet cannot have them .

or the fact that you want them .

and have them .

but all in all ,

the fact that no matter what happens,

all you want is their happiness :}

racism -

asians being rude to asians .

crowning caucasians like their the royal descendants .

some are , truu .

but not all . some aren`t really all that white .

cannot tolerate the service received in the city .

maybe i should walk into white shops .

or other shops that crown singaporeans .

like L was my father . i wished he was ;)

hes awesome . for the country ,

he did so much .

thank you L.

in other news today ,

i also rediscovered what i really missed .

not the cuddles. not the sweetness .

but just the friendship .

oh and i realised how much i disliked my ex ,

and things he did before .

thinking he was all that smart .

and thinking everyone was nobody .

and thinking that his girlfriend was his competition .

thus ignoring her for days .

weirdo he is .

disliking anyone that acts like him for that manner .

aka alot . sadly .

he`s not really all that great .

he tries to be =_=;

anyway . i`m thinking of buying textbooks online .

that way i don`t have to lug around the weight .

but then again ,

i don`t get to pick super good covers .

hehe . i loveee good books =]

gooodnight all .

p,s korkor , i hope you`re happier now ;(

jocelynnn x

2010-07-16T21:40:00.002+10:00

haven`t blogged for four days ,

*hides* i know i lack consistency .

i lack everything that requires motivation -_-;

i need to try harder .

been missing uni lately - i don`t know why .

RANDOMLY i do (: maybe cos of lou2 & von2 ,

&&danny boy - hey babes - miss you !

anyway,

went chatswood today .

for a good makato sushi lunch .

totalled up to $54.10 for three people .

which was rather reasonable .

then went shopping in westfield .

and marked the end of my required shopping list .

got everything i needed ,

tights, boots, bags,

pants, tops & jewellery .

everything done =]

the ring i wanted for a long long time ?

i bought the wrong size ,

so i`ve got to exchange that ~_~;

to a medium .

but that shall be next week =]

some day . maybe tuesday .

or wed . i wna go ice skating ,

i wonder whos free ..

oh well =]

looking forward to pb coming to aust .

that wld be fun .

good time buddies hanging out (:

anyway , i just wanted to post a little dedication .

to the boy i saw outside bi-lo that one day :)

i miss your smile .

i miss your voice .

i really miss all our conversations .

when can i see you again ?

我期待能拥有你的那一天，

期待能紧紧的抱着你的那一天

期待能在你怀抱里睡着的那一天

那一天会被我等到吗 ?

jocelynnn x

2010-07-12T20:52:00.002+10:00

the wonders that these sensations do to you .

you desire . you dread . you get sad .

you smile . you celebrate .

then you go back down to desire .

dread . sad and the cycle continues .

thats how sad it is .. sad sad reality .

anyway :) i`m a lil happy .

maybe cause i got an xray of my own jaw .

slightly freaky but pretty cool (;

then had dental . so i might extract wisdom teeth .

i`m currently feeling worried .

cause i don`t wna go alone .

then come out feeling like 'omfg'.

so yes . life has been good .

i`ve been working hard .

trying to save up for textbooks ,

and my 19th party . mmmm .

loveeeeee water activities .

i wna do random water sports ,

or similar . then fish .

then walk around .. those parties are fun .

so thinking of locations .

thinking coastyy places =]

anywayyy ,

i should be sleeping in about an hour ,

cos im waking 6ish tomorrow .

for 7 am shift .

i WILL NOT get over it .

not till tomorrow is over .__.

zz` gna be sooo tired =[

looking forward to wed .

thomas sabo :) i like !

hopefully some shopping .

i`m gna sleep soon .

i`m surprisingly really tired .

maybe cos i woke up early today .

and slept late ytd .

just for maccas breakfast .

yummyumm*

and i dreamt of the pre-wedding .

meeting the family .

then the morning of travelling to the hotel .

and the tweets of ,

a random confession ..

'ƒrom today on, she`ll be in my arms'.

something along those lines .

i woke up smiling ;)

it was sweet ..

i couldn`t help it .

in fact i miss it . all of it .

yaaaawn* gna go . nightnight ;)

jocelynnn x

2010-07-09T23:16:00.002+10:00

it has been awhile since ive blogged.

i know . sincere apologies for that .

i`ve been rather lazy .

trying to find other things to do ,

instead of sitting down and properly blogging .

its been pretty ok holidays so far .

fun . even though i`ve only met up with friends once .

or twice . meh . not many .

melbourne was really fun .

even though it fully drain`d my savings .

so thus i`m cutting down on meeting up .

trying to hit those marks like i used to .

any meet up tend to be the cheap ones .

so yes , but after melbourne trip .

i found sydney really boring .

maybe cause some friends went overseas ,

some went to the snow ,

some to melbourne as well .

and i end up going on msn trying to find people to talk to ,

apart from the fact ,

mac has decided to be gay .

and eat up words i send to people .

so no one ever gets the 'hi' and 'hey' and 'i love you' ,

i joke about the last one ;)

i may seem rude , but rest assured ,

i am not in any way .

ive been trying to say hi to many of you ,

but many of your msns doesn`t work with mine .

so yepp . apologies for that too .

so met up with lou2 and von2 yesterday ,

and went on a walkies at towers .

thanks von2 for travelling up to c/hill .

it was much appreciated :]

we became random people .

like always (we are random in uni, thus).

then von2 got tired , and we sat down .

&lou2 got us all balloons to play with .

in the end , we thought of ways to pick guys up .

von2 prob tried (: but it was embarrassing ~_~

in the end, yesterday also got me a '7am' shift .

working from 7am on tuesday ,

just because we are having stocktake .

so swarovski will be closed for half a day .

-__- zz` gna be SO tired tuesday .

even THOUGH i still want to play arvo.

muhah . gna try bake myself a chocolate mouse tmrs .

the recipe shall be altered ,

so that its not too sweet .

not too syrupy .

not too honey-yy :) yumm for good food .

i loveee good food .

so i finished another drama today ,

its 'my family' . a hk drama .

20 eps . fininished in about 2 days ,

prob a lil bit less .

but a drama which made me miss lunch .

sort of . didn`t eat til 4ish .

but shared an omelette with mum .

so i don`t call that proper lunch .

tea ? hhe . i`ve also been influenced ,

to the extent i miss singapore .

very much . i want to be back ,

shopping and spending on clothes .

and shoes , i want to buy pretty heels .

pretty ones that cost less than 20bucks .

i also want to go to kbox .

because i have nothing better else to do ,

but sing . i also want to buy new CDs .

and speak asian languages ,

like i just learnt them :D

stuff like that ,

i want to enjoy th yummyummyyy food .

like rojak , chui kueh, and all the kuehs .

i miss all that ._. and friends ! :)

so yeaaah . shall be planning a trip .

not sure when yet .

cause if tw trip is firm .

then i`ll rather save up for that ,

maybe stop over in sgp ?

or something like that :)

shall be looking for things to do ,

i love me boneees .

finished season 1 ..

halfway through season 2 .

hopefully i`ll finish all by end of hols .

goodnight .

jocelynnn x

2010-07-04T22:28:00.002+10:00

i just read marion`s blog & i got motivated .

only cos theres nothing to blog about on my side .

apart from a really good day at work maybe .

and how i got played with all the frickn words .

played sounds bad . not played .

but yeah -__- blah .

so i went into work today .

once more being the earlier one .

it feels odd .

when yur managers meant to be earlier .

&yur opening up instead .

i was freaking out .

cos i didn`t know if i shld be opening .

but i did anyway . hoorah .

then i took my time to start up .

she eventually made her way to work .

&i realised she had a wedding ring on .

engagement ring . w/e the difference is .

so YAY congrats for the engagement .

she told the story .

and it was SUPER romantic .

i ngaaaw`d at it :)

let`s hope its a good time ..

so presents can be organised for ~_~

hahaha .

then saw jono lim .

so that was fun :)

LION KINGGGG !

i miss him . much much .

but hopefully meeting up soon .

for dinner or smtgs .

then had two good sales

one was chinese zodiac plus turtledoves ,

another was 5 rocking flowers .

didn`t even have to show him .

everything was just 'ill take them'.

i`m like o.O okay...

then i took the boxes and triple checked they were right .

&&he didn`t even bother checking the piece .

it was .. awkward .

so that was good =]

then sold to other customers .

the fun ones .

so yay . then finished work with massive paperwork .

kpis .. dear lord .

it was maaaaassive .

god knows what they do with their figures.

but it was like never ending .

the amount of calculations .

and buttons . and ..

FRICKN MISSING MATH HALFWAY THROUGH WORK .

it was not good i tell you .

but anywaay .

came home and played withh my dearest .

he`s so adorable =]

so smart .. toilet trained so yay .

but still teething :( so -sadface-

oh oh , and i had to blog this in detail .

so this guy is all sweet and shit right ?

then he gives this plain shit the next week .

of some stupid excuse about how i don`t smile .

and i`m frickn going 'theyre not related'

then we stopped talking .

two frickn days i tell you .

it is soooo ridiculous .

WORST reason ever !

i don`t smile .. so ? -_-;

so i`m very annoyed .

at how soft i became .

and how affected i am .

YOU WERE NEVER IMPORTANT .

WHY DO I SUDDENLY BOTHER .

IT`S NOT YOU THAT`S MEANT TO AFFECT ME .

NOT YOU NOT YOU NOT YOU NOT YOU .

marion if yur reading this ,

msnnnnn :((((((((

jocelynnn x

2010-07-03T23:04:00.002+10:00

i know i haven`t blogged in forever .

just got back from Melbourne yesterday .

five day trip from the 28th .

so i got lazy yesterday .

&&decided not to blog .

i wasn`t gna today but i thought ,

i shldn`t disappoint sharon .

cos she`s trying to find something to do online ;)

how thoughtful of me huh .

hehehehe .

so melb was pretty cool (as in fun wise)

cold in terms of temperature .

left monday morning about 745 .

for a 1015am flight .

don`t ask me why ..

bro had to get dropped off at work .

and everyone ended up being early .

got there like 45 minutes before flight departure .

&& mind you i already checked in online -_-

so we got bored . slightly .

then realised my shoe was dying already .

hahaha . what we didn`t know was there were heaps of shops in terminal .

so we didn`t get through checkpoints till late .

&clearly we didn`t shop enoughs ._.

but it was still good .

found our gate , boarded .

&ended up getting different seats .

but it was still good :) emptyish plane .

then got there about 1145ishh .

we took our time .

got our airport transfer . so that was good .

then trip started with my hunt for my swarovski pendant .

ended up not getting it in melb .

carz bought it from qvb from me :]

casino`d i think ?

day 2 was titanic . that was fun (;

loved it . then came back ,

chinatown etcs . dinner @ butchers grill .

$46.50 for two . 2xdessert + main .

so that was fun . good food too .

but we didn`t finish it -_-;

and bought mummy a pair of boots .

cos she wore heels (god knows why)

so we had to lug around a shoe box with boots .

day 3 - docklands shopping .

that was fun :)

then went southbank @ night .

i don`t even remember .

prob pasta night ?

oh & we had car museum ..

THAT was funky .

hahaha . old cars + new cars .

ladiladila . bought a thomas sabo bracelet .

so eyeing on charms right now *hint*

day 4 - final day .

went dfo . shopp`d like craaazy .

ended up doing a withdrawal for crown .

&&realised i had 40bucks left ._.

from like 700 ? so i was in a foul mood .

with my spending ..

went back to drop the packages off .

and did massive packing and squishing .

casino`d that night again .

all the times we went ,

or last two .

i won like 37 bucks ? but !

i ended up sitting there .

and lost a lil of that 37 .

ended up with killing time && winning little bits .

raaawrh . i`ve found the machine i like :)

day 5 - final last minutes .

bought carz's penguin .

fell in love with a microwaveable stuff toy .

thankgod i just checked , syd carries them =)

baggage had to be checked in .

cos overheads were full .

raaawrh -_-;

made 'friends' with a guy on the plane .

cos he was grumpy at the start .

since we were seating window , and him aisle .

thn he was sourcing a pen .

and i lent him mine .

then we chatted during the plane trip .

awwwkward . but thankfully i did that .

cos he helped me after :]

thank you for nice people on the plane .

for those that helped with my baggages .

&&offered to help in any other way .

came back , & fell asleep in the car .

cos i was THAT tired .

lucki showed his love with the coolest kiss ever .

sloppiness over my face . ilyy :)

trip was good overall .

spent heaps , took heaps of photos .

3 albums on fb x__x

&yeaah , but came back .

&&got super mega annoyed ytd night .

ended up pissing the shit outa myself and others .

still super annoyed .

but anyway :]

hoorah for work tomorrow .

&&perfume collection .

goooodnight .

jocelynnn x

2010-06-27T23:19:00.002+10:00

melbourne tmrs :) yayyers .
i shld be sleeping now .
but yeaaah .___.
kindaa don`t want to .
leaving early morning tomorrows .

uuhhhh .. don`t like waking up early .
even though i am tired .
five days in melbourne .
hopefully that would be HEAAAAPS fun .
then when i get back ...
PARTYYYYY :)

sort of . work the sunday ,
get the money back .
THEN party like crazy :]
one month off work .
gna make use of the time .
photography around sydney ,
gym sessions with nice friends o.O"

then max b ,
baking sessions . and what not .
moviemoviemovie .
a truu holiday baby ~
anyway ! looking forward to melb .
but gna miss lucki .

took him to vet today for second vaccine .
84bucks .__.
got him groomed and all .
so hes looking good .
but when he got home, i bent over ,
and he sat on my legs.
so i was squatting .
then he jumped off .

and hurt himself .
then started crying :/
so he wobbled slightly .
got better over the day .

he received a massive pampering session with ben.
ended up getting the previlege to come into com room .
and sat on his legs for so long -_-
he prob wanted to fall asleep .
but then he stopped getting the pats .
so he started his licking lol .
then he needed to pee . but was such a good boy .
to control .. for a bits .

then when mummy took him back ,
he pee'd ... i was like o_o wow .
then at night , he got active again .
played fetch with him cos he wanted to lol .
and he was hyper .
till he got rly tired from all the running .
after me&dad =]
ilyy lucki .

milo`s got a new home too .
daddy finally made him a hutch =)
it looks pretty funky .
im very tempted to paint it .
lol ! but yes , shall do that when i`m back .
then hoola, plann`d melbourne ,
solved the office problem on mac ,

ended up having this crazy idea .
(by mum, mind you) for a tw trip ,
and now thrs this 'hey so tw. dec next year?'
thing going on ..
savesavesave . i want tw too :)
goooodnight .

jocelynnn x

2010-06-26T23:53:00.002+10:00

11.53pm - some people are still out ?

that annoys me .

no text . no msn :/

paaaaarty animals .

i wanted to go max b tnight .

but carz didnt wna go :(

i wna go max b sooooon ...

raaaawrh .___.

anyway .. melbourne in a day :)

yayyyers .

can`t wait .. needa charge batteries tomorrow .

like BATTERIES !

canon&nikon ~_~

thats for bringing two lol .

anyway .. yay for 3 new apps .

going to sleep .

gooodnight :)

jocelynnn x

2010-06-25T23:31:00.002+10:00

11.31pm on a friday night .

i`m home - massive wtf right ?

not skyping nor calling nor texting .

but instead blogging and msn-ing..

not that wtf but its still stupid .

and mum goes 'sleep soon

cos youve got to wake up early so you can eat'.

wtf? lol. random excuse ever.

prob cos ive been sleeping at 1 .

for two days . cos of bad influence ._.

some friends , talk ..

and talk .. and talkkkk .

then i can`t sleep .

cos they`re talkable lol ;)

i love them though . no joke !

anyway =]

so went towers today ,

and bought 20bucks worth of craaap .

like letter pad , etc ._.

oh the fun in spending .

i love spending . don`t you know ? lol.

towers for a bit . blahblah .

melbourne in 2 days !

hoorah . but i haven`t packed .

fml lol . i shld be .

but bones ties me down .

BIG TIME !

mm i`m gna bring dvds to melb .

hopeeeefully theyve got dvd player D:

ah wells . working tmrs :)

kind of looking forward .

but kind of not .

only looking forward to break ,

and hopefully having lunch company .

so YEAAAAP . goodnight .

jocelynnn x

2010-06-22T21:15:00.002+10:00

exams has ended. actually it ended ytd,

but i got lazy to blog ytd .

so i`m blogging today .

cos all my dear friends ..

ok not all [ i dont have only that amt of friends ].

but close ones are out .

so i have time to blog ,

without getting distracted .

nor getting into deep meaningful convos .

who am i lying here? ;)

hahaha . i`ve just been procrastinating .

its always easier to blame the friends .

hahahaha. uhm exams were fine ,

289 was okk . didn`t take long .

was a 1.5 hour exam ,

finished in 1 ..

then 216, 2 hour exam ,

finished in 1 too lol ._.

sooo bad . but it was a good exam .

then worked sat. spent sunday studying .

231 monday - finished that 1 hour ish .

lol i finish papers too quick ~_~''

but yeh then hols :)

then went towers .

cos i got aggro about work shifts .

then got home .

and watched 'time travellers wife' and played w lucki :)

so today, went towers again ,

cos i was bored .

was meant to ice skate plus haircut .

didn`t end up doing both .

so i`m thinking skating tomorrow .

but i don`t think i`m gna spend money ._.

i dno . lol . i`ll see (:

anyway , then had dinner w jeremy & co .

for his bday =] at noodle hut @cbrook .

thai . pretty good . i liked it .

hahhah . then woolies .

to shop for their lollies -_-;

slash junk food . hahah .

then came home .

and a few played with lucki .

then the end .

i got bored and blogged .

cos someone is watching a movie .

and not texting anymores D:

raawrhh boredd . gna youtube ;)

jocelynnn x

2010-06-18T22:32:00.002+10:00

two exams down , one to go !

289 was a half disaster .

but gave up ,

so walked out after an hour .

216 was good :)

had all my answers infront of me .

so walked out after an hour 10 mins .

231 left . ommmmg .

i`m not studying for it now .

i was reading a few slides .

just so i 'did something'

then now i have a headache .

so i think i might sleep early tday :)

then work tmr ,

&&study tmr night ,

and sunday :}

sorry jeremy for not being there for yur bdayy ,

doesn`t meant i dont love you .

or do i not already ? :D

anyway - thought i`d post this .

so woo ! monday monday monday .

cannnn`t wait .

movies monday arvo/night .

depending if mummy wants to go .

i LOVE staff discounts .

and today was good .

aft exam - went shopping w mum .

bought a shirt @ portsmans $20.95 .

cos of sale from $79.95 .

then went to colorado ,

&&mum bought a pair of boots .

was $159.95 .. &cos of members ,

it was down to $96. i love sales .

like REALLYYY love sales =]

then came home .

thank god . but went out dinner ,

then shouted .___.

so yep .. $59 gone ..

oh && 30+ bikies rode past us today ,

i thought it was freaky but cool :L

jocelynnn x

2010-06-15T23:06:00.002+10:00

blogggging . because thrs ONE day left .

before educ - ass2 results were out tday .

pc'd it .. so atm ,

im reaaaally screw'd for educ .

shld i even bother studying ?

lol . im in tht dilemma of .

study v give up and change course .

raaaawrh .. 35% - if i get like 25

i`ll pass .__. i think .

AHHAHAHAH .

thats the stupid educ team .

for not giving marks .

but just grades .

now i dont know what to expect .

gaaarggghhhh .

I HAAATE EEDDUUUUCCC .

anyway ! so tried training lucki today .

again - hes mastering it .

but its getting hard when hes too hyper .

he nibbles on my hand and shoe .

so i have to kick him .

while worrying he`ll hate my shoe .

and bite it more .

but yes , i love lucki to bits .

he`s super adorableeeey cute .

lovelovelove !

ok - i shld go .

nighttt !

jocelynnn x